ang pinabayaang blog...

gully!kaawa-awang blog...
hindi na napag-ukulan ng pansin...
hehe, i dont know if there's still someone bothering to
check this page. it's been really long since i posted.
lots of things happened already..
now, why am i blogging?
hehe, kse i have to study for something so i drank super strong coffee..
but i ended up doing this...
hehe!!
pero i really have nothing to tell..
let me just make a short description about the aspects of my life:
FAMILY: im still living at my lola's house...i honestly dont spend much time with my family..but we had
a vacation last April in Canyon Woods.
WORK: um, lotsa new stuff to learn for my training (contracts) and for my work (Supplier Loading) and i need
to make a manual on catalog loading in my free time. on the lighter side,we'll be having our team building
next saturday in faraway Antipolo, hehe!!
LOVE: i am happy. :) enough said.
FRIENDS: i'l meet up later w/ HS friends soc & ivy at Club Manila East with prince, abe & jaman.
Havent seen my college friends for months now but maybe and hopefully i'l see them soon!! My work friends
are planning on three out-of-towns!hehe. one is in Fontana, another in a beach in batangas & the last is our first year work anniv party in Caylabne ata!
ME MYSELF & I: still struggling in my eating habits...just cant fight the temptation to eat..

hehe, dunno when i'l write again but i hope soon!!

after 10 years!!

im back to blogging..
not that i have any story to tell.
i havent changed though im working...
im still foodaholic!i guess im sick already.my weight now is heavier compared to my weight before i enrolled in a gym 2 months ago..it's so sad..
well,two big reasons are my lola's homecoming and the super many bday celebrants last august!
syempre we had so many sweets at home that i just cant resist!
tapos every weekend super daming dinner--therefore so many food!

actually, im really shocked that my officemates are really amazed by my big appetite.
kse in my family, i was normal. In UP, i dont know. i felt that it was ok to eat a lot.
But now....i feel that im such a glutton.

i dont have self control talaga.
just today...i got off my bed at 2pm,had my lunch.2 porkchop and 2 cups of ice cream and lots of almond crunch (dala ni nanay)..it was really heavy so i said to myself i wont eat dinner na..
BUT NO!
after mass, my mom bought isaw and tainga and 2 boxes of pizza.
i just cant stop!
i still ate almond crunch as dessert!
takaw ko.. :(


iba naman..

about me being a princess..i dont think it suits me anymore...
im more of an ordinary girl right now..hehe, dati pa naman eh..
basta!

hmm,ano pa ba kwento ko..
c prince..hehe,hindi ko na sya prince dba?ewan ko.ill just lift up whatever remains b/w us to God.
complicated kse. i thought i was over him.so i was sooo bad to him, as in i felt na i can live w/o him.nagpakabusy kse ako with work tapos gym para when i get home,il sleep nlang. tapos last month, i had to study our training modules so i felt that i can really be independent and live happily w/o him.
but then one day, he told me that he'll give up on me kse ive changed na. although he admits na its his fault na ive changed, he told me that the reasons why he still wants be back was all gone...

buti nga binigyan ko pa sya ng chance eh!hay naku, i was really planning to follow the book, i kissed dating goodbye. pero i still gave in to him kse..

pero now,bahala na..

oh well..
it's 11:45 am sunday. i need to work again later...hehe!

sa work,after 3 months, may pc nko.hehe!la daw kse ako sa budget eh.poor me!
pero im kinda happy naman with work.although nung start i felt that i dont belong there. i felt that i can be in some other company that can give me better compensation and better position..
now, im contented. eto yung mga narealize ko:
1. i could not judge the work by months. maybe i could stay there at least 2 years and decide if i really want to stay there.
2. super ok ang training sa ofc..as in im like studying pa din!
3. my officemates are so ok!altough they are older,onti lang naman and fun tlaga sila!
4. lagi pa may kainan at party!
haha! :)

oh well!
ill be back soon!:)

i have a friendster blog

i created a friendster blog not because i want to really use that blog. it's just that i want someone to read those blog. kse if i just post that BLAH BLAH BLAH blog here, he wont read it.only jencarps, lisa, pia, mond, bern, tosca, jen, arnold, melai and kim can read it,hehe!!

so now,he told me he read it already,it served its second purpose already (the 1st purpose of that blog was to put all my thoughts about him there, as in cut in my mind (not copy) & paste into writing,gets?)hehe.

i added another blog so that ppl visiting my page wont see the 1st few sentences of that blog.hehe!masyado kasing makabagbag damdamin eh.

im ok na naman ryt now.although my officemates tell me i always tell them about my ex even if
they're not asking me to,hehe!!

my bestfriend wrote me a testimonial that makes me think na shucks!kailangan ko na talaga
panindigan tong desisyon ko sa buhay ko hehe.kung hindi,masasabi ng mga taong baliw na
talaga ako!

it's been so long..

it's been so long since i posted a "personal" blog. um, maybe i have nothing really to say.
well, at least now, i have months of stories..
it's june30. it's been one month since i started forever. no more teachers, no more tambayans, etc, etc..

honestly im really happy with the way things are going w/ work. my bosses are supportive, my officemates are ok, the office is relatively near at home..
nevertheless, it is still a huge change in my life. i was used to waking up at noon (even after noon!!), i was used to talking in class, being late in class, spending all the money my parents give me..etc..etc..

but now, i am learning the art of self-discipline...
although im really having a hard time..especially with my so called diet..

hehe, i eat 5 to 6 times a day--breakfast at 7, break at 10, lunch at 12, break at 3, merienda at 6 and dinner at 830. not funny..
what's worse about me is i always look forward to seeing the snack exchange counter in the mall to see what chocolates i should buy..

oh well, so much for my diet..
about work, actually, i still have no real responsibility at work. in one month, i listened to trainings, did errands here and there..
it's because i still dont have a pc..and a desk.. so sad..

but in that one month, there was 4 bday parties that were celebrated in the office..syempre libre... :)
1. lunch at kfc
2. magnolia ice cream--strawberry & chocolate
3. ice cream -mango & choco plus choco mallow cake and brazo de mercedes
4. lunch in the ofc- fish fillet, chickn, rice, lengua, coke, (sayang, di ako nakakuha ng shrimp!)hehe.

so there..
oh by the way, i have a sideline...im really enjoying my business..i ope it would go well always!!
bili kayo ha!! :)

you know what?i told myself that i will be prim and proper and quiet in the office..
but no!!
hindi ko kayang magkunwari!now, my ofcmates know na im loud, makulit and MATAKAW!!
so much for my "new world, new life" plan.hehe.

o sha, next tym ulit!!

Closing Cycles

Closing Cycles
By Paolo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end.

If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?
You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.

But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.

Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment." Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

- Warrior of the Light, a http://www.paulocoelho.com.br/ publication.

"Love is a commitment of the heart that will stand the test of wavering emotions, intellectual rationalizing, circumstantial allure, hormonal infatuation, and even the wounds of your lover. Anything less is not true love."



NOTE: i really havent got the guts to read this and instill it in my mind coz honestly im not yet ready... let's just say that im sure i need to read this one of these days and it's convenient na its already on my blog...
YUP, IM STUBBORN.........

think about this.

Whatever you are, be a good one.-Abraham Lincoln

If you don't have the time to do something right, where are you going to find the time to fix it?-Stephen King

Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.-Philo

When you dig another out of their troubles, you find a place to bury your own.

It isn’t hard to be good from time to time. What’s tough is being good every day.

Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap, but by the seeds you plant.

The first step towards the solution of any problem is optimism.

Happiness always looks small while you hold it in your hands, but let it go, and you learn at once how big and precious it is.

You cannot step twice into the same river, for other waters are continually flowing on.

It is by attempting to reach the top at a single leap that so much misery is caused in the world.

He who postpones the hour of living rightly is like the rustic who waits for the river to run out
before he crosses.

I value the friend who for me finds time on his calendar, but I cherish the friend who for me does not consult his calendar.

Growth in wisdom may be exactly measured by decrease in bitterness.-Friedrich Nietzsche

We are not here to be successful. We are here to be faithful.-Mother Teresa

I try to avoid looking forward or backward, and try to keep looking upward.

There are victories of the soul and spirit. Sometimes, even if you lose, you win.

Unblest is he who thinks himself unblest.

growing up......

WARNING::OVERLY NONSENSE!!

hmm..
i dnt really have a story to tell...
nothing's really happning in my life recently..
in a day, i sleep for more than 10 hours daily, watch TV for 5 hours, read books (harry potter & danielle steel) for 6 hours, and eat for the remaining hours.
so why bother to blog?
hehe. la lang...im BORED.........
BUM..

right now, i cant honestly admit na im sad... kse i really try not to.pero yun, it's just that you try to work out things in your life only to be ruined because of different complex complications..

actually i know God loves me, im blessed because of my family (just went to bora w/ them!), friends (it's really good catching up w/ long lost friends and also meeting new ones), and all the material things God has given me... i know that this thing happning in my life is just for me to remember that i have God to turn to...

well im only human..
i can be afraid
i can regret
i can cry
i can love
i hurt
i love

hay naku bakit ba kse may mga bagay na madaling sabihin mahirap gawin.
mahirap magdecide.mahirap mag let go.mahirap bumangon..

enough about this crap.hehe!!